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why she d expressed her true feelings when she d told Kellen about it. And Kellen s understanding
about why it had been so mortifying made her feel better.
You know, it wasn t your fault, he added, and gently rubbed his knuckles up and down her
bare arm.
Kellen was right it hadn t been her fault. But for a long time she d blamed herself for not
knowing what to do or how to make him stop. It had never occurred to her to blame Jonathan
Kingsley.
I hope the other two treated you right, Kellen said. I don t want to hear about some other jerk
hurting you.
No. There was just the one jerk. My second lover was my only long-term boyfriend. We dated
for months before we finally slept together. Michael was even less experienced than I was, but once
we became intimate, we had a whole lot of fun figuring out what felt good. We broke up after college.
He wanted to go to China and teach English. I told him to have fun without me.
You didn t want to go with him?
Our relationship had grown stale. I d fallen out of love with him, but he never did anything
wrong, so I didn t know how to break up with him. How do you end a relationship just because it s
boring? His going to China finally gave me the excuse I d been waiting for.
Aww, you didn t want to hurt his feelings, did you? I didn t realize you were so nice.
Nice? I was a doormat. But those were the end of my doormat days. I dated several guys after
college, but I was so wrapped up in my music that none of those relationships progressed and I ended
up sleeping with only one of them. That was a couple of years ago.
Well, that explains why we jumped into bed with each other so quickly. We were both hornier
than a bucket of desert toads.
His sense of humor continually surprised her. He seemed so serious and deep, and then he let
loose with something like that.
I can tolerate horniness, she said. I think I jumped into bed or rather onto piano with you
because you re the sexiest man I ve ever met. I m usually expert at controlling my baser needs. I ve
been called an ice princess and a cold bitch more than once at the end of a third date, fourth date, and
fifth date with no action.
I ll have to take your word on it. I didn t experience any ice or cold.
Just a princess and a bitch.
Neither. If I had to describe you, I d say you re hot, talented, sexy and& horny.
You got at least one of those right.
She shifted so she was straddling his thighs. Did she notice that her wide-open, bare crotch was
perfectly aligned with his cock? Of course she did. And she d be doing something about that soon, but
first&
Your turn, she said. Tell me about your other three lovers.
He was silent for a long moment. God, she hoped he wasn t thinking about her again. But of
course he was. Dawn had point blank asked about her. Dumb, Dawn. Real dumb.
First there was Jennifer, then Becca, and I ve already told you about Sara, he said. So did
you major in music in college? What was that like? I had some guitar lessons, but never studied
theory.
What? she sputtered. That s not fair. But if you don t want to share, I ll just make stuff up in
my head. So Jennifer was your sweetheart all through elementary school, but she moved away before
you went through puberty. When she returned some years later, she d grown boobs and
He covered her lips with one fingertip.
Nothing as romantic as that. Jennifer was my first groupie. We were both in high school, but she
was a year older than me. She used to come to every band practice. She watched and danced and
cheered and dressed in next to nothing and fed my ego. So I screwed her. She fed my ego some more.
And I screwed her again. And again and again and again. Like three times a day. She eventually
decided she liked drummers better.
She cheated on you?
He nodded.
Well, that sucks. Did you love her?
I liked her. A lot. What seventeen-year-old doesn t like to get fucked three times a day? I was
young and horny and needed my ego fed. No long-term damage was done when she switched band
members, though watching her make out with Snake was weird. Not as weird as William Pierce
suddenly insisting that everyone call him Snake, but yeah, a bit weird.
So that didn t end too badly. What about Becca?
If you ever meet Owen, you cannot let him know I slept with her.
Why?
Because she was his one. Or at least he thought she was at the time.
You slept with your best friend s girlfriend?
Oh no. She never dated him. He thought he loved her and she rejected him. She didn t reject me
though. I m not even sure why I slept with her. I wasn t really attracted to her. She came on to me and
it just sort of happened.
Dawn snorted. Yeah, that sounded like a boy s reasoning. It just happened.
Stop that. Kellen squeezed her until she giggled. Sleeping with her wasn t worth the orgasm.
For years, every time I looked at Owen, I thought about the time I slept with Becca and I was revolted
by my actions. Having sex with her is what made me decide that I d only sleep with women I felt a
connection with. Sex for the sake of sex was never worth pursuing.
But the only other woman you ve slept with is Sara.
Yeah. And you.
Dawn sat back on his thighs and tried to read his expression, but there just wasn t enough light
on this side of the room to even guess how that made him feel. I m not sure I m ready to hear that.
So don t listen. I m a little tired. I tend to talk a lot about things better left unsaid when I m
drunk or tired.
Do you want to sleep?
No. He stroked her hair. I want to spend more time with you.
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